Peace again
A lot of things happened to me in the past one-two months and I do not feel the strength to describe everything in details, so here is a short report on some issues... more to come a bit later.
Summer University is going on with full speed which means that I work through the weekends as well as doing 2-3 hours overtime every other weekday. As the admin of the e-learning site I am really not bored - but at least the extra money I am going to get for the extra work during June will come at the best time for my Japan trip.
Csabi is leaving for three weeks in Mongolia in about a week and it turned out now that we still should buy a digital camera that he can take with him, and also to bring more money as the accommodation will be more expensive than they initially planned. So all these mean some extra expense so we had to touch my Yen again. Now I have hardly some Yen for my own trip but I will get all the extra money just before I leave in August, so I think I will be fine.
I am happy that Csabi can go for Mongolia and there not only to the capital, Ulanbataar, but also to a place that is believed to have been known as Shambala, a few thousand years ago. I am so sorry that I cannot go, but this is the price I have to pay for my trip to Japan. I asked him to bring me something from there that refers to the "Inner Path of the warriors".
By the way it seems that our issues are getting sorted out by nature, and our relationship looks good again (I wonder how long it will stay like this). I try not to take anything too seriously, neither the ups nor the downs. Especially not myself. I know that the problem lies somewhere in my restless mind, so I have to tame that if I want to be happy with anybody. It seems that I will never find anyone near as suitable for me as he is. I am glad when I manage to experience this satisfaction in connection with him and I try to remember it when the dark clouds cover my mind again.
In the past few months spiritual practice pulled back to the background of my everyday life, due to the stress and tight workload I think. But by now I realized that I need it as much as "the desert needs the rain" - my life is just a vegetation without it and I remain "hungry" for walking the path.
So l kind of returned to active practice again, and it brought such a peace for me. I believe that there is nothing more important in this life than being satisfied with what you have, helping others and not to regret anything when death comes. I saw a lot of death around me recently and it always makes me go thinking. In the light of evanescence everything that I have been so busy about in the past months seems so useless and insignificant. So I try to focus again on the more important things. (Maybe this is one of the reasons for the development in my relationship with hubby.)
I hope the success-story is not over yet ...
Summer University is going on with full speed which means that I work through the weekends as well as doing 2-3 hours overtime every other weekday. As the admin of the e-learning site I am really not bored - but at least the extra money I am going to get for the extra work during June will come at the best time for my Japan trip.
Csabi is leaving for three weeks in Mongolia in about a week and it turned out now that we still should buy a digital camera that he can take with him, and also to bring more money as the accommodation will be more expensive than they initially planned. So all these mean some extra expense so we had to touch my Yen again. Now I have hardly some Yen for my own trip but I will get all the extra money just before I leave in August, so I think I will be fine.
I am happy that Csabi can go for Mongolia and there not only to the capital, Ulanbataar, but also to a place that is believed to have been known as Shambala, a few thousand years ago. I am so sorry that I cannot go, but this is the price I have to pay for my trip to Japan. I asked him to bring me something from there that refers to the "Inner Path of the warriors".
By the way it seems that our issues are getting sorted out by nature, and our relationship looks good again (I wonder how long it will stay like this). I try not to take anything too seriously, neither the ups nor the downs. Especially not myself. I know that the problem lies somewhere in my restless mind, so I have to tame that if I want to be happy with anybody. It seems that I will never find anyone near as suitable for me as he is. I am glad when I manage to experience this satisfaction in connection with him and I try to remember it when the dark clouds cover my mind again.
In the past few months spiritual practice pulled back to the background of my everyday life, due to the stress and tight workload I think. But by now I realized that I need it as much as "the desert needs the rain" - my life is just a vegetation without it and I remain "hungry" for walking the path.
So l kind of returned to active practice again, and it brought such a peace for me. I believe that there is nothing more important in this life than being satisfied with what you have, helping others and not to regret anything when death comes. I saw a lot of death around me recently and it always makes me go thinking. In the light of evanescence everything that I have been so busy about in the past months seems so useless and insignificant. So I try to focus again on the more important things. (Maybe this is one of the reasons for the development in my relationship with hubby.)
I hope the success-story is not over yet ...
