Back from the fog...
I know I disappeared for too long. Life's like this.
I am thinking about moving over to another provider - tho I dunno to which one. I keep looking.
Today I've got the news that a colleague of ours died because of brain-haemorrhage.
It hit me a bit like a surprise, as this guy (52) was one of my greatest admirers at my workplace - I always got some compliments from him, which became more and more annoying lately, but all in all he was a cool person.
Majority of the Hungarian population dies because of cardiovascular diseases, and the reason is somewhere both in the unhealthy nutritional habits and in the lack of doing some sports.
So this death-notice made me think about death again. We can never know when "our time" will come.
This weekend I go to Croatia for Hojo-seminar. By car. Hmm.
I would be more than happy to return to Hungary alive and healthy...
I still owe an email to my Canadian buddy but I could never really make it to putting myself and my thoughts together and write a decent letter. But sometimes I just feel I need to disappeare from the eyes of the public and withdraw into my private sphere, into the deepest solitude of a cave, and to be only with myself.
Eh, rambling again :)
Time to run for training...
I am thinking about moving over to another provider - tho I dunno to which one. I keep looking.
Today I've got the news that a colleague of ours died because of brain-haemorrhage.
It hit me a bit like a surprise, as this guy (52) was one of my greatest admirers at my workplace - I always got some compliments from him, which became more and more annoying lately, but all in all he was a cool person.
Majority of the Hungarian population dies because of cardiovascular diseases, and the reason is somewhere both in the unhealthy nutritional habits and in the lack of doing some sports.
So this death-notice made me think about death again. We can never know when "our time" will come.
This weekend I go to Croatia for Hojo-seminar. By car. Hmm.
I would be more than happy to return to Hungary alive and healthy...
I still owe an email to my Canadian buddy but I could never really make it to putting myself and my thoughts together and write a decent letter. But sometimes I just feel I need to disappeare from the eyes of the public and withdraw into my private sphere, into the deepest solitude of a cave, and to be only with myself.
Eh, rambling again :)
Time to run for training...
2 comments:
I recently went through an experience of death, so I've been thinking a lot about it recently as well.
Death relates to Love, because Love is the Will to Unite, and Death involves the appearance of Separation, which leads to Sorrow. However, we can deal with this Sorrow if we realize that Death is both a necessary and natural part of Life, as well as a gateway to the next stage of existence.
Nuit says:
"For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union. This is the creation of the world, that the pain of division is as nothing, and the joy of dissolution all."
Hope you're having a good day,
Shawn
Yes, Death is about Love and Separation, but for many of us it is even more about attachments, and it is still a problem for me, too. Sometimes I wonder where is the border line between being attached to someone and loving deeply the very same person. How can you find out which is it about in your case? For me it's difficult, but I am trying to find the balance in this as well.
Yes, Death is about Love and the Will to Unite, but I first need to find the place of this attachment thing in me. Without doing this I will just keep causing pain and suffering for myself.
Death in the same time is also a wonderful thing. One of the greatest misteries in one's life. Also, it can teach us about real Love, about how we all are the same.
How great Nuit's words are!!
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